i'm not short, i'm just fun-sized:)

2010-04-27T22:03:00.004+08:00

"If you love someone, let them go. If they return to you, it was meant to be. If they don't, their love was never yours to begin with..."

how true is the above?:/
it's upsetting to know that we no longer talk as much as we used to...
in fact, we used to talk even more before we got together...
i've a lot of things that i really wish to share with you still, but i dont know if i should.
perhaps you dont feel that same, perhaps you feel that you've got nothing to say to me anymore.
what happened to remaining as friends?
(though i'm still not totally for it:/)
everything's worst than before.
if i had known, i wouldnt have accepted you...
it's not that i've regretted being with you for that 105 days, but i dont like how things are between us right now...
i'd rather things stay like how it was before we got together...
now there are hardly any hellos or goodbyes...
i dont like having to feel like i'm pestering you, all i want is just to talk to you...

will you even be reading this?

2010-04-10T21:55:00.000+08:00

S CLUB 7 - Have You Ever
Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just wanna change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together
Back in your arms where I belong
Now I've finally realised it was forever that I've found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels
To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see
Even though the moment's gone, I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry (I'm sorry)
Can't you see, (ohhh) that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, (I should know) cos I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let you go

2010-04-10T01:14:00.000+08:00

~~today was supposed to be a happy day...~~

i really miss the times that we've spent:/
everything is not the same without you...

2010-03-31T19:00:00.002+08:00

it's been one week...

kelly,
you need to stay strong...
you need to catch up with everything in school...
you need to stop failing your tests...
you need to stop worrying the people around you...
you need to get focus...
you must...

i'm sorry... but i still love you...

2010-02-01T16:33:00.004+08:00

Delta, you're greatly missed...
Hopefully you darlings are doing well:)

yes, i miss you too...

2010-01-31T12:52:00.002+08:00

first two days of school werent that bad afterall:)
there were quite a few crescentians there!
hmmm... mostly npcc people, including hazzie!
and met a few nanyang people there also.
like um, from 6D - Zhiyong and Yew Yeong, Bus - Jiayan, Lower Pri - Geng Lin, Others - Xiang Yi (?), Yang Tze, and Lionel (?)
it's a small world huh? haha.
first day was mostly talks and more talks.
it was kinda boring:/
after school met up with dear for lunch and to pass him the remote:)
second day was mostly talks also, but at the end we had mass dance which was kinda fun!
i'm starting to like JJ.
"Welcome to JJ, this way please! *claps*"
made a few new friends from my OG also!
kelly is so happy:)

on friday night, went to watch edge of darkness with them (brother, dear and audrey and their cousins)
well, it was planned last minute, but i'm happy that we managed to go out:)
after the movie we (except their cousins) went to starbucks.
the two young ones were sharing a lot of stuff about themselves while the two younger ones just sit there and listened.
it was super interesting!! haha.
(um, but not the parts when my brother made me the topic:/)
then after that we played the monopoly card game. fun:D is the word. haha.
hmmm... actually the four of us can be considered childhood friends:)
i hardly remember anything about audrey when we were younger though:/
but i really enjoyed talking to her after so long:D
went back at about 4am that night! haha.
(my parents are not supposed to know about this okay!)
really had fun!!!
hopefully we can do this again when she comes back from sydney:)
anyway, kelly is NOT innocent right?! (say yes, please.)

things arent that bad so far huh?
well, at least we managed to meet up twice since school started:)
i MUST do well.

Delta!! Meet up this Saturday?:)

2010-01-25T23:57:00.001+08:00

kelly is back by popular demand! haha.
anyway, it's been a super long time since i last updated:/
the previous two posts were drafts that i made super long ago.
was planning to update it, but well, got too lazy to do so. haha.

tomorrow is my "last" day of work:/
i'm kinda sad to actually have to stop work.
i really enjoy working there a lot!!
i'll probably miss the "HI! Welcome!:D" and "THANK YOU! See you again:)" that i'm so used to saying;
the little kids who would smile and say thank you when they leave the store;
~~stupid parents who would ask their children to say "thank you AUNTIE" (argh.);~~
and the times when i would look forward to end work and meet him for dinner (:D).
looking on the bright side, at least they've put me on hold:)
i'll be back during the holidays!!

school is starting soon:/
doesnt it feel like O's just ended yesterday huh?
i'm so used to being in Crescent.
wherever you go, you'll see familiar faces around.
but now, you'll have to start all over again...
i'm starting to feel very insecure about everything now:/
what if i cant make friends in my new school?
what if i try to be nice and people thinks that i'm hypocritical?
what if i try to open up and people thinks that i'm trying to gain attention?
there are so many what ifs...
well, i guess my self esteem can be quite low at times.
but i really care a lot about how people think of me. (is this good or bad?)
JC life is going to be short, and i really dont want to screw it up:/
and also, what about our secondary school friends?
will we still be able to be as close?
i remember the times when we graduated from primary school and how everyone was telling each other to keep in touch etc., but some friends are no longer in touch.
what if that happens this time also?
sigh.
well, just hoping that everything will turn out better than expected:/

dont you hate it when parents start to nag? argh.
i must show good results by june. I MUST.

2010-01-09T14:22:00.003+08:00

hmmm... havent been updating for quite some time:/
okay, all the way back to Christmas...

party at that side was boring.
we only went there to eat and stone in front of the tv for 4 hours:/
after that, met up with part of delta at ION for the countdown.
saw live snow mans there! haha. (cause almost everyone was using the snow spray)
really enjoyed the atmosphere there:D
everyone seem to know everyone!! (like the duck tours passengers who would wave at us:D)
after we headed back to sop's house.
the plan was to go to henderson wave, but everyone was super tired and lazy.
so we played cards and talked about life till almost four:D haha.
it was my first sleepover at a friend's place!!
really enjoyed it:D

cant really remember what i did for the next few days:/
then on the 30th, had class outing:D

(kelly was too lazy to continue the post:/)

2009-12-27T20:37:00.005+08:00

it's time for some long overdue posts!!:D

[u]19122009[/u]

6D gathering:D
It was the most successful one in the past two years!!
It started to rain that day just when we arrived.
So we went for lunch at PIZZA HUT and played Indian Poker and Pig outside the Ticketing station to Sentosa:D
After that we went to Sentosa, played Captain's Ball, and then cycled.
Took the double bike with Audrey:)
We went back to Vivo for dinner.
Bought takeaways from the food court and went up to the Sky Park.
Played a few rounds of Dare-Or-Dare.
It was quite fun:D
Most of the guys were surprisingly very enthu! Haha.
There was another group playing also.
So we combined the dares for a few rounds:)
Some of the Dares we did:
- Shouting "Happy New Year, who want to pull my ear?"
- Asking a guy playing the guitar for his autograph.
- Singing a birthday song for a birthday girl.
- Kowtowing to the huge X'mas tree.
- Doing the Can Can with the other group.
- Pole dancing with a guy from the other group.
- Taking a picture with a stranger.
It was fun:D:D:D
Hopefully we can have another one on 2nd Jan...

2009-12-25T18:46:00.003+08:00

i'm not sure if i can actually say that the problem is already solved, but at least things are more or less back to normal now.
i did find out a lot more stuff about my parents after this entire argument, but i'm not going to let all these affect my relationship with them or change my opinion of them.
no matter what they did or have done, they've done enough as my parents for me to respect them, and i will.
but i must say, ignorance is certainly a bliss...
it's actually better if you do not know about certain issues, really.

anyway, thanks to all those who've been there for me the past few days.
really appreciate you listening to all my rantings and your pieces of useful advice.
please dont worry, kelly will stay strong:)

X'mas party cum sleep over at Sop's house was fun!!!:D
will update more another time.

3 4, 3 4 2 4 3 5 1 3 2 7 4 7 4 7 (6 3 4 2 2 4 2 5:/)
4 4, 4 4 4!!!
1 4 3 2 4 4...

2009-12-21T23:55:00.002+08:00

it's really tiring to put on a strong front and show that i dont really care:/
is it really my fault?
what have i done to this family...

4, 2 7 3 4 4 5, 1 6 2...

2009-12-21T00:27:00.003+08:00

maybe everything was my fault.
maybe i should have put myself in his shoes and understand how he is feeling.
maybe i shouldnt have encouraged her to reply him with that sms.
maybe i shouldnt have taken sides.
everything is so screwed up now, and it's my fault.
all those encouragement that i've given, asking my mum to file for a divorce.
he's unreasonable and demanding at times, but he's still my dad.
at least i realised how much i meant to him when he asked whether i've had my dinner, even though he was drunk.
and how badly he said that he wanted to go home, thinking that he wasnt.
i have horrible parents, i really do.
i guess they didnt expect me to find out so much about them.
but i'm not going to let them know about what i know.
cause there's no point in doing so.
no matter what, they're still my parents.

3 4. 3 3 4 3 3, 3 1 2 7 3 2 5:/
10 2 5 5 4 5 3 4.
2 4 3 4 4 4 2; 4 8 5 10 4 2 1 3 8...

2009-12-18T00:10:00.003+08:00

had part outing yesterday!! (though only two-third of the part turned up:/)
i'm very sorry that everything didnt go on according to plan:/
sorry that you all didnt get to cycle, had to pay extra for kbox and didnt have time to go to barrage:/
but i had fun:D (hopefully you all did too...)
kbox was great!!
although i sounded really horrible:/
the rest were awesome!! really enjoyed listening to them sing:D
then we had "dinner" under the bridge near esplanade.
pictures here!!

went shopping with yeeshan today!!
it was a rather fruitful day:D
though i spent quite a lot:/
WISMA.ION(takoyaki!!:D).TAKA.WISMA.FAR EAST.CENTRAL.313.HOME.
that's how much we walked.
really had fun though:D

2009-12-09T21:26:00.002+08:00

went to taka yesterday with chen ting to buy -'s birthday present.
before that, chih yin came over to my house to return me something.
so in the end, the 3 of us ended up having lunch together.
we went to yoshinoya (sp?).
it's been pretty long since i last went there to eat!!:/
most of the time spent there was trying to force the "crisis" out of chen ting.
it was hilarious!!
and we started questioning chih-yin about her future life in the states.
like whether she'll tell us if she's in a relationship etc.
hahahaha.
walked around ion after that with chen ting.
sharing gossips and gossiping (like aunties!!) haha.
looking forward to how she'll really settle her "crisis" on sunday...
haha.

went "shopping" with yee shan today.
our plan was just to walk around today and we'll have another day planned when we'll really start spending and buying:D
we started walking around far east.
couldnt really pay attention to the stuff around there cause i was busy telling her about -.
anyway, yee shan can be quite bitchy at times also okay!! haha.
then both of us started to feel very sleepy:/
so we went to ION for food:):):)
we wanted to eat a lot of food, but ended up eating only takoyaki (sp?).
it was super filling!!
she bought japanese (i can pronounce this word properly okay!!) rice balls and i had yami yogurt:D
hmmm... then we started to walk to wisma, and then to taka, and then to paragon.
after that we decided to go to plaza sing cause we needed stuff from daiso and spotlight:)
on the way home, we were going down the escalator in the mrt station when we noticed two guys running for the train.
the train door was about to close, but the first guy just dashed in, leaving his friend outside.
the other guy outside just gave the "WHAT?!" expression/action and said quite loudly "EH...".
shall not blog about yee shan's reaction upon seeing what happened (i still have a bright future ahead!!) haha.
today was fun:D
though i spent quite a lot today:/:/:/

my dad confirmed it yesterday:/
i really really really dont feel like going...
but do i have a choice huh?
~~things would probably be different if someone isnt going to korea...~~

2009-12-06T23:18:00.004+08:00

went to taka to meet the "poor" chen ting who eats only old chang kee for dinner, for lunch:) (apparently that only happened once.)
haha.
i arrived there, but she wasnt able to leave yet.
so i walked around.
bought this box of pretty Christmas cards:)
hopefully i'll have the time to finish writing them and give them out.
considering the fact that i've lots of incomplete presents to finish up... i must stop procrastinating!!!
well, at least i've something to do now since i'm jobless huh?
haha.
so yup. after that i went back to stand in front of the counter that chen ting's working at.
i stood there observing people, and that includes her.
haha.
well, i must say she looks quite pro.
but not till the time when she said "SHIT" very loudly.
haha. i think she was shifting something and it got stuck.
and um, there was this queue filled with aunties queuing for gift wraps just beside the counter.
she wanted to make fun of me, who was standing near all the cups and stuff.
so she said loudly, "auntie! how much are the cups huh?"
immediately, one of the aunties in the queue turned to stare at her.
hilarious!!!
she was super embarrassed, she squad down and hid behind the counter.
hahahaha.
then i noticed a very old couple who were carrying huge bags of stuff.
the old lady was holding a lot of gift wrappers also.
i guess they bought christmas gifts for their family, which i found quite heartwarming.
they seem to be struggling with those huge bulky bags, but they also seem very happy.
there's just this feeling in me which i cannot describe in words when i saw them.
do you all actually get what i'm trying to say?
and why does my previous 5 lines seem like i'm doing picture discussion huh? HAHA.
then there was the super busy staff at the gift wrapping counter trying so hard to wrap the customer's gifts up properly.
something in common, they would always smile when they pass the wrapped gifts back to their customer:)
well, maybe they're supposed to do so, but it seems as though they feel happy being able to wrap the gifts up nicely for their customers:)
do you all get what i'm trying to say again? haha.
i notice a lot of other people also, but those mentioned above were like the highlights. haha.
then after a period of observation, chen ting and i went for lunch.
well, i was expecting her to go in the locker room and get changed.
but she came out only with her green jacket over her entire taka outfit!
i swear she looked damn funny (a nicer word to replace retarded).
then we went to buy the bento set from TORI Q and sat near the fountain to eat:)
after lunch, we walked back to her locker room and then i left.
my mum called to tell me that she'll be around taka in 30 mins.
so i decided to wait.
but in the end i decided not to.
cause i dont like to walk around aimlessly alone:/
so i called to tell her that i'll be going home.
BUT in the end i dont know how to go home from taka:/ (i have no idea how to get around orchard!!)
and i was too lazy to walk to the mrt station.
so i called my mum, again.
i tried to ask her for directions, but after trying so hard, i still couldnt understand:/
the next thing i asked her, "are you all on your way? i shall wait for you."
so i walked all the way to lucky plaza (they went to deliver shoes for my grandparents )to meet them.
well, i waited at the taxi stand for like 40 mins:/
(kelly is a very patient person huh?) haha.
i did nothing but observe people again.
hahahaha.
well, nothing interesting though.
just stared at this group of Filipinos who were arguing.
this lady was super angry that she was screaming at the top of her voice.
the other lady getting scolded was just showing attitude, standing with her arms crossed.
i felt so pissed for the lady who was doing the scolding.
but maybe she's scolding the wrong person or something?
oh well. they were speaking (or should i say screaming) in Tagalog, so yup.
i didnt understand a single word. haha.
there were other people around also, with that group.
two other man, one smoking, one playing with his phone.
another lady just looking around and up in the trees.
the last lady occasionally commented, but seems like she was ignored most of the times.
haha.
so, after 40 mins, my aunt and my aunt came:)
we went to people's park to buy some stuff then went for dessert around chinatown:D
dessert was awesome!!
after a few hours, went for dinner.
at night my brother was having dinner and i stole a little of his food.
this is bad. kelly ate so much today okay!! argh.

anyway, why is kelly not working?
well, that manager told me that i can start training after i came back from overseas since i'll be away during the training session.
when i came back, she told me that she wont have time to arrange for training for me as december is a really busy period.
ARGH!!
so yup, i can only start work next year:/:/:/

2009-12-06T00:45:00.003+08:00

yesterday i went to visit my grandpa at the workshop (or factory?).
it's been quite long since i last saw him:/
anyway, he and my grandma are still pretty busy with all the shoe orders.
since i'm only starting work next year, i guess i'll be going down more often to give them a hand:D
~~i'm still upset over the fact that i can only start work next year!!! argh.~~
swept the entire workshop and helped to count their orders.
it was unexpectedly tiring!!
i think my grandparents are fitter than i am now:/
this is bad. this is bad. this is bad.

2009-12-03T02:30:00.005+08:00

still not asleep:/ haha.
anyway, a video that really made me cry...
Eliot was born with an undeveloped lung, a heart with a hole in it and DNA that placed faulty information into each and every cell...

2009-12-03T02:09:00.000+08:00

should i continue waiting or should i just go to bed?
~~i guess you forgot, again:/~~

kelly's really bored now:/
bored to the extent that her beloved brother is taking pity on her and singing her a song, in Cantonese. (awesome.)
after he finished singing the song, he realised that i didnt understand it at all.

he's trying to rap now. um, failed:/

*spins head around ~~vigorously~~*
RING DING DONG. RING DING DONG. RING........... X2
um, i guess he only knows that part of the song???

trying an english love song now.
(silence for a minute...)
he cant find the lyrics:/

oops! did i just hear him swear?

he's trying to sing a thai song now.
(searching for lyrics...)
it's actually a chinese song but the thai version.
erm, i think i'm hearing chinese words...
okay, now thai.
wait, but it's a different song!!

okay, moved on to the next song.
it's really thai now.
(trying very hard to get the lyrics right.)
um, going a little off tune...

okay, my brother is damn hilarious.
haha. awesome! i love him<3

guess what?
after all this ~~nonsense~~, "i have a test later."
*thumbs up for him*

~~i dont know if i'm doubting you, or myself...~~
well, i shall just go to bed...

2009-12-02T21:31:00.002+08:00

Finally got the pictures up!!:D

MK Restaurant!! Love it:)

Some random bins that i took outside a toilet.
So many of them huh?

This is damn gross.

Pretty waterfall!!:D

One of the photos i took!
It's damn nice right? (you're not allowed to disagree!:P)

I think I have talents for photography:D
Haha.

Nice room that we stayed for 2 nights in some resort:D

You're thinking that i have talents too huh?:)

Emo cousin... Haha.

Don't deny. I have it. (HAHA)

I like the sunlight in the picture!!!:D

We went to this place filled with sunflowers!!

Pretty pretty.

Have you ever seen so many sunflowers in your entire life?
Dont be jealous:P Haha.

The peacock in here was kinda desperate.
It was trying so so hard to attract the peahen!!
Apparently, there were roosters and other feather stuff around too.
So it had to try to attract and shoo the rest away at the same time!!
It was hilarious!!:D

See, it's confirmed. I have it.

We went to sit the thailand G-max:)
(Kelly, i'm super proud of you!!)
My screams were horrible though:/
Haha.
And my cousin and i screamed at different times.
It was funny:D

He's a real person!!

So is he!
Super amazing.

Sunset!!:D
It took only approximately 3 mins for the sun to disappear from this position!

My cousin looks damn pro here. Haha.

We went on a submarine!!:D
That's the "entrance".

Bubbles...:D

Fishes!!
Nothing much to see underwater though:/
Was expecting to see the nemo species, but everything was so dull...
Like those in the picture:/

Well, i'm kinda lazy to upload more. Haha.
Had a super ticklish experience of fish spa and a super tiring experience of windsurfing too.
Oh. And we went to watch the Tiffany Show.
It's a concert filled with super beautiful females-look-alike.
Shall upload the pics asap after getting it from my aunt:D

~~looks like the friendship is over:/~~

2009-12-01T20:44:00.000+08:00

back from thailand:D
it was AWESOME!!!

[blogger refuses to let me upload my photos!! argh.
shall upload another day then.]

~~memories of Christmas time with you will just kill me if i'm on my own...~~
-a lonely september, plain white t's

2009-11-15T21:05:00.000+08:00

I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW PEOPLE CAN BE SO CRUEL!!!

2009-11-15T15:27:00.001+08:00

finally back to blogger after so long!:)
there are so many things i wish to blog about, but i dont know where to start from:/

um, O's were considered manageable.
but combined humans and amaths was pretty screwed:/
oh well.

11112009
on the last day of the paper, went job hunting with hazel:)
we went to vivo and applied at toys "r" us, build-a-bear and b&j!
hopefully b&j wont call:/
the lady was super scary!!!
really want to work in the other two though:D

12112009
hmmm...
next day, met chen ting after her last paper and we went to taka.
applied for job there too!
had trouble looking for the human resource office:/
the whole process of applying for the job was just funny!
then we just walked around town after that.
bumped into MC outside paragon, doing something super unglamorous!
haha.
and saw KT and TZY at coffee club!
such a coincidence huh.

13112009
day out with study pals:)
supposed to go for seoul garden but we went for Klunch instead.
it was a super long time since i last went for Kbox:/
i must say those three are AWESOME singers!
hazel sang her hokkein (sp?) song and rapped!
it was great:) (i dont understand why she says that she cant sing!)
eudea's voice is just sweet.
she can make you feel sad just by singing!
jy is BOOMZ. (except for lady gaga's songs.)
HAHA.
i just sounded horrible. argh.
after that we went to shop around for prom stuff.
hazel and i got our dresses!:D

14112009
went out with chen ting to shop for prom.
walked around bugis, then to bugis street, then to iluma, back to bugis and then to central:D
managed to get most of the stuff i needed.
but chen ting didnt managed to buy her stuff:/
really had fun along the way though:)
oh. we went to pasta mania for pizza!!!

hmmm... i guess my summary skills arent that bad afterall huh?
haha.
next week is gonna be a super busy week for me!
but still, i'm excited:D

p.s. i've got a new pair of specs!!!:D

~~it's because our friendship means a lot to me, i had to say no...~~

2009-09-06T19:20:00.000+08:00

i'm really excited for tomorrow!!!:D

anyway, chem tuition kinda annoyed me just now.
really hate teachers like that. ~~biased ass.~~
i dont know why i'm so pissed even though it doesnt concern me:/
but i feel really bad for hazel.
sorry pal, wasnt of much help to answer your questions you asked me.
all i could do was to shrug my shoulders or shake my head:/
i'm very sorry.

kelly told her mum to confiscate her tablet tonight.
so you wont see her on facebook or msn till O's are over.
(but i hope that i can upload the pictures that we take tomorrow, tomorrow:/)

i'm getting very very forgetful nowadays:/
last month, i wore my contacts for a way longer period than i'm supposed to.
like two weeks more? argh.
can any kind soul please remind me to dispose my current contacts on 15 Sep?:/

2009-09-05T15:49:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling bad for being pissed off at - yesterday:/
but i was really very upset for the fact that she doesnt believe me!
gaining people's trust is really very important to me.
it just hurts badly to know that people think otherwise of you:/

i hope i wont be psychoed into this whole issue.
that's the last thing that i ever want it to happen.
kelly must learn to take it as a joke!!!

i really wanted to tell you about it last night, but seems like i cant.
and you dont seem to care as much as you used to do.
i dont want to create any misunderstandings.
oh well, i guess you wont even be reading this.

today's tuition was (fill in the blanks).
other than being sleepy, which is nothing unusual, i dont know what to say.
the last part of it made me reflect a lot.
everybody is studying super hard, while i'm not doing anything.
they all have aims in life, but i know nothing about what i want to do.
kelly, you must buck up!

i feel really bad for not being able to do the same;
but neither will i force myself to. i'm sorry.

2009-08-31T23:25:00.000+08:00

i am very very sleepy:/
i'm supposed to have finished studying social studies by now, but obviously not done:/

anyway, today was a very happy day:D
mass dance was awesome!
skit (minus off the rehearsals part) was even better!
i love 4S2A<3

-'s kicking up a big fuss over small things again.
and i dont like it:/

i think somebody ought to confiscate my laptop away from me!
it's giving me far too many distractions:/
~~and i cant find the motivation to study...~~

2009-08-29T00:42:00.002+08:00

time check: 12:42

kelly's very very tired:/
she's excited for the lunch later!:)
and she's excited for sunday (get that idea of your mind!) cause of class tee:D
she looks forward to monday, for class dance and skit:)

alright. this is a retarded post:/
take care everybody! have a good weekend rest:)
KELLY LOVES YOU<333 haha.

2009-08-24T19:17:00.000+08:00

kelly MUST stop thinking about it:/

2009-08-22T01:17:00.000+08:00

"there's a limit to everyone's patience."
yes. kelly will remember that in future.
i'm sorry that i pissed you off:/

results were out on wednesday.
at first i thought, i shouldnt pressurize myself that i must get a one.
i felt that a two would be good enough.
but i guess i was wrong.
i realised deep inside, how badly i wanted a one.
it was just super depressing:/
oh well. but i wont be re-taking it.
anyway, i kinda realised that friends and family members will really be there for you when you're feeling down.
the constant reassurance that i did well that day, honestly, did cheer me up:)
(although i still dont like the fact that i didnt get a one)

~~i am starting to detest myself a lot.~~
sometimes i really wished that you could believe what i say.
cause the feeling sucks when you dont gain the trust of others.
being well-aware that people dont really mean it, i still cant help but feel affected by it.
and i really hate myself for that.
because of this, i'm finding it harder to tell you things that i really wish you would know...
and i dont want to face all of these, alone.

prelims are in six days' time.
and i'm not prepared:/

~~you are the cause of all this.~~

2009-08-17T22:23:00.002+08:00

is this like the piss-kelly-off period?
why is everybody so freaking annoying?!
i got nothing done tonight, not at all:/
and one thing for sure, i'm not pms-ing.
first it was my brother, then it was my dad, followed by my mum, and -, and -.

- :
you kept putting me down the whole time i was talking to you.
and i'm sick and tired of it.
initially i took it as a joke, but it really annoys me as the convo continued.
i told you i was annoyed, you told me that you're always annoying. WTH.

- :
stop acting as though you care when you dont.
it really irritates me each time you're so hypocritical.
and i dont like to be someone whom you'll look for only when you need help.
so stop taking me for granted.

argh. i dont know why i'm letting all these minor issues distract me so much.
prelims are round the corner, and i really want to get things done!
why must all these annoying people come and irritate me now?!

~~i need someone to talk/rant to.~~

2009-08-17T20:00:00.000+08:00

~~super pissed with my brother now:/~~

2009-08-16T19:12:00.002+08:00

Scandalous
= disgraceful; shameful or shocking; improper: scandalous behavior in public
= defamatory or libelous, as a speech or writing.
= attracted to or preoccupied with scandal, as a person: a scandalous, vicious gossip.
≠ KELLY!!!

argh. i have super nice friends, let me tell you.
friends who mock at me.
friends who make me sound like a desperate freak.
friends who make me sound like a total slut.

*turns to look at my teddy bear*
"you're my only true friend:) you dont mock at me, dont make me sound like a desperate freak, dont make me sound like a total slut... Aw..."

RIGHT. THAT'S BECAUSE YOU CANT FREAKING TALK!!!
argh. please ignore the teddy bear part.
it's just nonsense.
and it'd be freaky to have a talking teddy bear:/
but seriously, life right now it's like a nightmare.
everywhere you go, ~~(people want to know...)~~ people are mocking you about the same issue.
even during tuition, your phone vibrates.
you got a message about someone else asking about the same issue.
ARGH!!!

okay lah. but looking on the bright side, if it makes people happy, i dont mind being the joke.
to all my friends out there, see what a nice pal you have here huh?
better appreciate her okay!
haha.

i was falling asleep during tuition:/
today's lesson seemed to be exceptionally long!
and that ~~stupid~~ girl kept laughing to herself.
oh well. another week gone:/
"you're only down to one month and three weeks to your O' levels..."
argh.

~~copper goes through menstruation...~~

2009-08-15T18:37:00.002+08:00

just got back from my run:)
but i only ran for a while and i was super tired:/
let's see... we ran about 4km? (which includes i think 300m of walking)
this is bad.
"kelly, you better start training up your stamina!!!"
oh well. looking on the bright side, at least my leg is fully recovered:D
it really sucked not being able to run for 1 month:/
the whole world: i feel kinda energetic now!:):):)

today's bio tuition was kinda fun:)
i'm trying to plan a "class" outing for the whole bunch of us.
although all of us aren't that close, but since it's our last few lessons, why not huh?
and i actually asked Mr Lam today whether he is willing to buy our whole class lunch as a form of motivation for O' levels.
he replied, "lunch got motivation meh?"
in the end, we managed to make him say, "aiya, you organise lah. send me the bill."
haha.
but maybe he's just joking.
cause he was rushing off in order to not get fined for his parking fees:/
if we can really have the outing planned, it'd be so cool!

~~gosh. hungry ghost festival is coming:/~~
anyway, somebody once said that if i happen to bump into one, just give him a call and he'll ask it to go away. haha.

2009-08-15T00:02:00.002+08:00

is it only me, or is blogger screwed?
anyway, today started off with something bad:/
its probably one of the stupidest thing i've ever done!
argh. hate myself.
i skipped lunch today to go for consultation.
i dont know why, but i feel so accomplished:)
okay, but i was super hungry after that.
kelly cannot go without food:/
and today's study session with eudea was kinda productive at the start.
but towards the end was just ranting about everything under the sun.
"you must stop complaining and feeling bad about it, or else those who are putting in effort will feel that they are not doing enough..."

kelly's going jogging tomorrow!!! :D

2009-08-13T19:02:00.003+08:00

since that girl claims that i didnt "BLOCK" about her...

LOVE

HAZEL TAY RUI XIN

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i wanted to post a picture of you, but blogger didnt allow me to do so:/

and since i've proclaimed my love for you, you better not do anything on sunday okay!

i treat you to VENEZIA okay?

OR MOS BURGER with more onions?

OR BUTTERFLY PRAWNS?

OR CHASOBA(sp?)?

OR CHAWANMUSHI(sp?)?

OR MANGO DESSERT?

OR CHEWY JUNIOR?

okay, i dont know what else.

BUT! notice the "OR"s okay!

kelly did not mention that she that she will treat you everything mention in the above:)

the whole world:

i dont think he visits my blog that often already.

And I dont think he’ll be that smart to figure it out.

Haha. He has probably forgotten all about you!

~~i hate mosquitoes!!!~~

2009-08-12T19:35:00.001+08:00

yay! changed blogskin:)
kinda sick of the other one:/
yes, i'm supposed to be studying.
but i only spent 30 mins doing this! pro huh? Haha.
i "ponned" tuition today:/
cause lessons ended late and i'm super tired.
so i decided to make-up another day:)
anyway, i think jovi's hamster is cute!
but i just dont like small furry movable stuff to be anywhere near me!
if you get sick of your pet one day, try bringing it near me:)
(i'll get rid of it for you, i promise.)

"you cannot control what happens to you;
but you can control your attitude towards it..."

~~i feel sick:/~~

2009-08-06T22:21:00.001+08:00

since tomorrow is national day celebration, i've decided to slack.
okay, maybe not slack. i'll write notes!

firstly, to my dearest mortal who's migrating soon:/
i doubt she'll actually read my blog, so all i want to say to her will be in the letter:)
but, i'll miss you babe<3

secondly, to the people i really miss spending my mondays and thursdays with.
none other than delta:)
dont worry, i've not forgotten about your R.O.D presents.
i'm working on it all these while. really am.
just that progressing very slowly:/
i really miss the times that we've spent together!
loves<3

thirdly, to the people i feel like writing a note to! haha:D

this week passed by really quickly.
did i mention?
i really enjoy school a lot!
like it makes me forget about all the unhappiness in me.
i really love 4S2A:)

funny things that happened this week:
- the hilarious convo with -, and letting HER know about it. (but kinda gross in a way)
- jenna and our banana from A-Z song! HAHA. (we laughed till we teared so badly during bio!)
- "eudea, please separate your ear from the table. since sec 2 also like that..." -poon-
- How to get a free dinner from guys: Right after your meal, "thank you very much for the dinner. it was wonderful" (or something along that line.) Haha. -poon-
- will add on more when i can remember:D

racial harmony day:
(blogger refuses to let me upload the pictures:/)

YOG Learning Centre Amazing Race:
(blogger refuses to let me upload the pictures:/)

I have realised that one can really be happy if they praised more often.
Not that i've been praised a lot recently, but i just realised that it really feels good to be praised by others:D
So, from now on, i'll be very generous with my praises:D
Probably the person will just stare at me and laugh about it, but well, it'd make me feel happy too!:)

-to be continued- (i think? haha.)

2009-07-31T23:32:00.001+08:00

i dont know what's wrong with blogger / my internet.
argh. annoying:/
this week seem to have passed so quickly.
i dont know what's wrong with me this entire week.
i keep thinking about stuff that are unimportant and what i may say, stupid.
and its not just the mere thought of it!
it troubles me a lot, like practically the entire day.
i get very paranoid over small issues.
everything i do, i'd think about how others would think etc.
and then it'll affect me a lot if i have negative thoughts.
why should i even care about others?!
i have no idea.

one
recently 2 pretty old friends of mine were published in a mag.
i just thought of catching up with them, so i added them on facebook.
i sent both of them an email (through facebook), asking them how are they etc.
but all of a sudden, a thought came to my mind.
it just seems like that's a third party speaking in me.
that person in me said,
"now that they're "famous" already then you start making friends with them again. others will think that you're trying to stuck up to them."
moreover, one of them didnt reply my mail.
that made me felt worst!
but the point is, none of them ever said that to me!
on my part, i believe i'm being too sensitive.
i really dont know why i actually have that mindset.
well, at least i know that if i'm witnessing this whole issue as a third party, i definitely wont see anything wrong with trying to catch up with your old friends.
but i just cant seem to convince myself not to think so pessimistically.

two
and i'm starting to feel worried for people whom i know, not studying.
but come on, not like i'm progressing well in my studies too huh?!
i shouldnt even be bothering about others when i myself cant cope, should i?
there's like never ending list of homework and class tests!
but instead, i will start worrying for him/her.

three
school's becoming very stressful:/
with almost up to five tests a week, and so little time to study.
i really want to do well in my tests, but the thing is, i really dont have the time to study.
and it's not like i can actually not do my homework.
right now, although i dont watch tv like i used to when i got home in the past, i still feel that everything's so packed!
there's just not enough time to complete my homework.
and this really frustrates me a lot.
because, i really really wana do well...

four
there are so many things to settle in the class right now.
other than the class com, i feel like i'm facing this all alone.
i never used to think this way, but right now, i think the class is just selfih (to a certain extent).
i really want to get things done asap, but i just scant seem to get the cooperation from them.
it just seems like all that's important to them now is studies.
but hello? i need to study to, dont i?
why cant we just settle all this together once and for all?
but, on the other hand, i am the class chair.
why should i be complaining?:/
(i just contradicted myself again.)

okay, i'm lazy to continue the list.
and i'm super stressed up now.
like O's is so soon and i'm not prepared:/
plus all the other issues (which is quite a lot) bothering me at the same time, it just makes me feel more and more demoralized and stressed:/

as the weeks go by, kelly gets more and more tired!!! Argh:(
oh, and i'm pretty annoyed also by what a couple and another family said about us today!
Super irritating!

famous amos doesnt cheer me up anymore:/

2009-07-19T00:36:00.003+08:00

many have banned the word "sorry" from me.
but i just can help it. sorry.
i'm really glad to know that there are so many out there who cares for me.
but i'm still not quite over whatever that had happened.
everything remains vivid in my mind.
it haunts me now and then.
it's really hard to get over it.
but i'm trying. i really am.
i dont know if anyone actually understands how i feel.
"it's not your fault."
that's what all of you say.
it'd made me feel worst, if i told myself, "you're not to blame".
but i'll stay strong no matter what.
in order to not continue hurting,
or to worsen the guilt i have towards her, towards 4S2A...
you'll see me smile again, i promise.
but you'll never see me cry deep inside.

2009-06-21T01:36:00.004+08:00

There's a song which totally suits my current mood...

Taylor Swift - You're Not Sorry
You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no ohh

My right eye has been twitching the entire night!
I hope nothing bad happens; at least not to someone close to me...:/

2009-06-07T20:00:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BRAVO DAY!!!

Dearest Delta,

Time flies. Two years ago, we just became "Bravo".
Now, we're "Delta" and we've stepped down:/
Conflicts and arguments aside, it was truly a great four (almost) years spent with the whole bunch of you:)
May we continue to celebrate more bravo days:D
ILY<3 united we stand~

2009-06-07T00:10:00.003+08:00

today went to IMM after tuition to pick up -'s present with sop, ct and jy:)
i was smsing someone while walking there, when a rather tall guy, wearing black jeans and grey shirt was walking towards me.
for a moment, i thought i was walking into a lamp post!
so when i looked up, i got shocked when the "lamp post" was walking.
and the guy gave me a weird stare:/

stayed up to pack my study table last night.
and yes, i am very proud of you kelly:D
it's amazingly neat now!
haha.
but i doubt this neatness(?) will last long:/

i want to go on the Singapore Flyer!
(since it's only $10 for students now. haha.)

2009-06-06T22:40:00.000+08:00

This post is super belated:/
It's been in my draft for almost a week!

The presents i received this birthday:D

Close-up of the board i had to parade with around tiong:/

The board people signed on during my party:)

Dinner with family at some jap restaurant:D

Got more things to add on.
Soon:D

2009-06-05T00:40:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling damn bored now:/
just wasted a day doing nothing.
argh.

sometimes i wished you were more persistent...

2009-06-04T01:04:00.000+08:00

previous post had so many weird codes below some of the pictures:/
argh. never mind.
lazy to remove them.
haha:D

2009-06-03T22:02:00.008+08:00

birthday cake:)

thank you mummy<3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_LrrXoUDVLts/SiaJvjN9IXI/AAAAAAAAARc/dq5WHKbMQfQ/s1600-h/P1120318.JPG">

thank you yaya<3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_LrrXoUDVLts/SiaJvU6_K1I/AAAAAAAAARU/iKJI_Lj7UB8/s1600-h/P1120310.JPG">

thank you for coming<3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_LrrXoUDVLts/SiaYr7l2p9I/AAAAAAAAARs/e1nvpsP9TnM/s1600-h/P1120324.JPG">

4S2A<3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_LrrXoUDVLts/SiaJv2rwTAI/AAAAAAAAARk/MDRTqzMTmKQ/s1600-h/P1120321.JPG">

delta '09 <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_LrrXoUDVLts/SiaYsttzGqI/AAAAAAAAAR0/xW4eZ8o1HsY/s1600-h/P1120325.JPG">

group photo:D

shu mei:)

yee shan and extra chih yin! haha.

alagammai:)

annie:) thanks for being the usher!

pretty eudea:)

jessie and half of hazzie's head:)

hazel, hanisah, myself and hazzie:)

wan min (emaths partner!) and janeen:)

brenda, azalea and jia min:)

delta:)
they were rejoicing after pushing me into the pool!
oh well, too bad.
shall not post the photos of me in the pool.
haha.
super unglam!!!

the disgusting seaweed forfeit game.
includes, honey stars, cocoa pops, baked beans, camel nuts, strawberry jam, peanut butter, nutella and m&ms!
haha. imagine the taste!!!

the signboard delta made me wear!
haha.
had to wear it around tiong:/
but apparently, no one gave me a hug.
received quite a lot of stares though:/
oh, the blue and white top's from delta too:)
changed after i got pushed into the pool.

delta, thanks a lot for everything!
thanks for helping out and making the party a lot more livelier, the presents etc:)
really enjoyed myself.
ILY<3333333333>

Spent a lot of time uploading man!!! :/

when you've got them, you dont appreciate.
when you've lost them, your heart starts to ache.
is everyone like that or is it just me?
i feel so selfish...

2009-05-24T19:45:00.002+08:00

another sleepless Sunday?
two comprehensions,
twenty-six comprehension MCQs,
two compositions,
four letter writing.

~~kelly's damn stressed.~~

2009-05-24T01:54:00.010+08:00

dont you think this is such a nice photo taken?!
I LOVE 2A<333

~~what can i say?~~
perhaps you just dont understand me...
you feel like a stranger to me all of a sudden...

2009-05-19T23:16:00.003+08:00

there are just so many things i wana let you know.
but i just cant seem to bring myself to.
at times, i really cant help but think that you find me a nuisance.
from the fact that i'm always taking the first step.
it kinda proves that i'm right.
well, i doubt you're even gonna read this... :/

2009-05-19T19:45:00.002+08:00

it feels great to be back with delta today.
though it was just a few hours, it was enough to make me smile:D
but photo taking kinda spoiled our mood.
it was supposed to be eight photos!
but they cut it down to 2, a group one:/
i think our batch is really the unluckiest...

for today...
i have 20 chinese close passages,
and 2 chinese letter writing.
due tomorrow:/

i didnt sleep for the whole of sunday:/
slept only about 1.30 - 12 last night.
super sleepy.
but kelly, you must perservere!!!

everything that had happened seem to feel like a really long dream...

2009-05-17T19:00:00.002+08:00

nah, i'm not that pro to come up with such a nice picture...
my brother gave me a link to a website:)
although the picture is cut off, but i think it's pretty!
got other designs, upload another time.

i've been having headache the whole day:/
slept only at 4a.m. last night.
i dont know how i managed to do that.
but at least my mum didnt find out...

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale...

2009-05-17T02:47:00.001+08:00

my life seem to have changed without all of you.
there's just this indescribable emptiness within me.
with you, life was much cheerful, much livelier.
right now, i shed tears for no rhyme or reason.
the laughter that we once all had together, no longer seems to exist.
delta, i miss you so...

2009-05-17T02:03:00.003+08:00

~~my head's spinning from all that drinking...~~
party was kinda fun, but not until the end:/
oh well.
exactly 2 more weeks!
yes, i am worried.

why does it feel like you dont care anymore?

2009-05-16T00:15:00.002+08:00

the more you all push me to study, the more i wont!!!
it's really very annoying.
so what if chinese o's is coming?
you cant freaking force me to read the bloody shou ce everyday!
not like you borrowed it from your friend FOR ME, means i have to read it.
and not like when o's are coming, i dont deserve a break!
despite staying in school still 3p.m., tuition from 4p.m. to 6.15p.m., night study from 7.20p.m. to 8.30p.m.(though not very productive), you still expect me to study when i'm home?!
i've been studying the whole day!!!
everything that i ask you, your reply would be a freaking "no, you have to study later."
what is your problem?!
i really cant wait for the day when i actually fall so seriously ill that i land myself in the hospital.
or perhaps the day when i decide to jump off a building.
i'll see if you'll still tell me, "no, you have to study later..."
kelly's very annoyed now!!!

2009-05-06T19:54:00.002+08:00

although i am more than halfway done with sec 4 work,
i still have the entire sec 3 work to cover!!!
and nothing that i've studied seems to be in my head.
yes, i am feeling worried.
but theres no motivation in me to actually study.
cant get my FULL attention focused onto my books:/
~~i just feel like walking into class tomorrow and flunk my paper.~~
okay, you didnt see anything.

2009-05-05T17:30:00.005+08:00

was browsing through some pictures of beloved Delta.
~~i teared.~~
am missing the times we spent together quite badly.
be it the sad times when we flared up at each other, or the times we spent happily together...
i miss those days.
delta, please tell me that we'll never ever say goodbye...
cause i love all 11 of you so.

we fight, we laugh, we cry; as the years go by...

kelly needs to study!!!

2009-05-05T14:58:00.004+08:00

to my stupid neighbour:
how many days do you freaking need to finish up whatever you are drilling?
don't you know its the exam period now huh?
it's really stupid for you to start drilling LAST thursday, decide to TAKE A BREAK on WEEKENDS and start drilling again yesterday and today!
is your house that freaking BIG?
well, i dont think so right?
since i'm living in the SAME BLOCK as you, and this entire building doesnt seem to have any floors protruding out...
perhaps you should buy a BIGGER DRILL.
~~sickening ass~~

i hate my cough mixture!!! (okay, actually, i dont like taking medicine at all...)

26 days to Chinese O's! Argh.

oh, and i dislike people who reads my mails without my consent!

2009-04-26T15:15:00.003+08:00

i don't know what's the problem with them.
just leave me out of everything would you?
if you insist that whatever you do is right, what more can i say?
and stop saying that i'm showing attitude.
it's not that you aren't.

why do i feel so empty inside?

2009-04-26T02:51:00.000+08:00

there are a lot of things troubling me deep inside.
but, i don't know how to open up to someone, anyone.
or perhaps there is just no one.
everything seems so important, but in fact, it isnt.
everything seems so unimportant, but in fact, it is.
can't seem to understand?
that's how i'm feeling right now.
i don't know if i'll regret the decision that i've made.
i'm just not willing to accept, willing to express how i really feel.
many times i've tried, but there's just something holding me back.
and i really want to apologise to you, for being what i would say, selfish.
i don't want to judge them based on their exterior, but they don't seem to behave like how they really are on the interior.
i believe that we still have one another, but everything just feels so different after ~~09 April~~...
is it just me?
i'm always smiling whenever i see all of you, but deep down, i'm very worried.
i try not to be prepared for the worst, hoping that everything would remain at its best.
but should things really worsen, i wonder how long i can continue this deception to myself.
sometimes, looking on the bright side may not really be a good thing.
i'm really tired after this week. mentally tired.
i may seem as though i don't care about anything, but actually, i really do.
from study grades to them to my family.
and it's really tiring to have to put up a false front...

2009-04-25T23:48:00.000+08:00

The following conversation was made when i tried to befriend somebody in my Primary School.
Well, i don't exactly remember striking this conversation with her, but this was what she told me.
Oh, and btw, i was primary 5...

Me: hey, what's your favourite colour?
Her: blue:)
Me: oh. my favourtite colour's pink. that's why my bag is pink.

I can't believe i said that okay!
it's super primary 1/2 way of talking...
but i was a freaking primary 5 kid then!
kelly, was that how you always tried to make friends?!
"what's your favourite colour?"
omg. omg. omg. omg. omg.
that someone told me that she remembered the conversation so clearly because actually her favourite colour's pink also.
but at that time, blue and green were the colours that people were "after" and it was cool.
so she told me blue.
hahahahahaha.
damn hilarious.

2009-04-17T22:18:00.000+08:00

sometimes i feel as though, the more i try to not be someone i dont want to be and is not who i really am, the more i appear to be.
get what i mean?
well, perhaps i think too much.
i dont know:/

2009-04-17T18:52:00.002+08:00

i dont know what's with your hot and cold attitude,
but i just hope that it wouldnt last long.
because you make me feel so lost of what to do...

2009-04-16T19:46:00.004+08:00

Prefer someone with you

You want someone there, you want to have someone to wake up to every morning. You tell people you are happy alone, and some of the time you are but in reality it's not what you would choose.

i took the above quiz on Facebook:D
Are you happy being yourself?

okay, i suck a lot.
i have a lot of outstanding post which i have yet to post!
i think i have at least 3 drafts in my account now:/

i shouldnt be here.
i have 1 chinese compo, 1 chinese letter writing and 1 english letter writing to hand in tomorrow:/
but i cant help it.
got a new keyboard!!!
haha:D

2009-03-31T22:28:00.002+08:00

since my keyboard is miraculously working well now...
okay, i'm supposed to be doing my weekly letter writing (sucks big time!!!) now.
but i'm kinda lazy to actually pick up my pen and start writing.
~~okay, i hate myself a lot for that.~~
please dont read the following if you think your 2.4 timing sucks.
well, i think overall the whole class deproved.
and that's quite crazy.
my last years' timing got me about 8th position in class.
that is if i didnt remember wrongly.
this year, the top in class is 8 seconds slower than my last years' timing!
see the difference?
8th '08= x
1st '09 = x + 8 secs
whats with algebra and me?
haha:D
okay, but i still got an A.
so i shall just shut up and think of those who didnt do well:/
during the run, i did something stupid.
i dont exactly know what happened though.
i was running and suddenly i ran towards the railing.
okay, you have the permission to laugh at me.
until you read the next line.
because the railing had some pebbled surface, i've "earned" myself:
- a cut as long as my index finger on my right wrist,
- 2 small cuts near my fingers,
- about 6 cuts on my thigh.
yes, ouch.
i didnt realise i was bleeding till the end.
haha:D
okay, i feel stupid.
but i dont know what happened!
i just dont remember seeing myself running in that railing direction.
my dad said i probably "passed out" for a while.
and he says its because i didnt eat breakfast.
so, he offered to boil me an egg every morning.
but, no thanks:)
well, i think i should start on my homework.
Chinese 0's is in about 60 days' time!!!

3 more days...(<333)
and
2 more days... (CHANDNI!!!)
okay, my keyboard's acting up again:/

*oh, btw, sophy, if you see this, go see the pictures for ADC '09.
got my idol the picture inside!!! hahahaha:D quite close up also:)
and i still remember, he only smiled 7 times during the whole camp:/
haha:D*

2009-03-27T23:09:00.001+08:00

8 + 6 + 6 = 20
if you get what that means, that's how screwed i am.

2009-03-25T16:02:00.002+08:00

abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz.
yay! my keyboard's back to normal.
today's the end of common test, but it doesnt feel like it.
perhaps its also because i know how badly i've screwed it.
i shouldnt have let my mc gone to waste.
haha. just kidding.

today some of us had a break during the physics paper.
so we went to the top floor above the library.
we = kauthami, karen, eudea, glenda, hazel, teryne and jenna.
i couldnt concentrate with kauthami with me.
supposed to be studying amaths, started talking rubbish.
haha.
and we started to read all the vandalism (?) on the table.
(is that the proper sentence structure?)
then i started to fold tissue roses.
i sticked one on the table:D
after a while the rest came.
and i started making bird noises.
haha:D
some real birds started making noises on a nearby tree also!
then the rest were like asking me to shut up:/
and i asked them a very random question:
"who knows how to sing sweet escape?"
cause nowadays the 'dont forget the lyrics' keep replaying the contestant singing that song.
and eudea said "chia siew kian" (pure chem teacher)
haha:D
all of us were quite shocked.
but apparently, eudea thought i said CSK and she meant it as "chia siew kian"?
haha:D
sweet escape = CSK...
a lot of other funny things happened during that time:)

9 more days...

2009-03-24T14:47:00.002+08:00

Reasons why i dont like taking medication:
- because they're deceiving. just look at all the pretty colours they come in...but they taste horrible!
- because most of them that i have to take come in such huge sizes which i can hardly swallow.
- because each time i take them, i feel as though no amount of water can help me swallow them completely. there's just this uncomfortable feeling in my throat:/

2009-03-24T12:37:00.002+08:00

10 more days...

i couldnt finish my emaths paper on time today:/
totally screwed.
i left out 11 marks worth of questions!
there goes my only hope for an "A"...

"i'm strong on the surface; not all the way through
i've never been perfect; but neither have you..."

2009-03-23T19:23:00.003+08:00

my brother's friend in Australia was possessed yesterday.
i dont know what happened in detail, but that's what i overheard from my parents.
the girl who was possessed was behaving strangely, breaking down all of a sudden.
she even told my brother to go jump off the building.
i'm really worried for my brother...
the girl was sent to the hospital yesterday, and my brother was made to tag along in the ambulance.
some of their other friends followed in a cab behind.
and guess what?
the stupid teacher who accompanied them on the trip just stayed in the hostel, crying.
shouldnt you be the one going to the hospital?
moreover, my brother and friends arent familiar with that area.
will you take responsibility if something happens to them?!
but no matter what, i'll be praying for you kor.
11 more days...

come to think of it, i wont know what to do if someone i know gets possessed.
what will you do if i'm possessed?
i'm pretty curious to find out.
i told - about it, and she said that she'll walk away.
in case the spirit finds her chio-er and decides to go onto her.
haha.
it's quite obvious who this person is.
the typical her...
well, i'm not treating this issue as a joke, but i'm just preparing myself should anything like this happen in future...

i screwed the 3 papers today.
partly because i didnt study at all, due to the entire holiday packed with camps.
and i couldnt concentrate.
was feeling quite sick the whole day:/
my lit essay was super short...
i wanted to go home and not take the paper, but somehow, i did not.

~~Charlie '08~~ DELTA '09, ILY<3 united we stand~

2009-03-20T22:14:00.003+08:00

i complained, yes i did.
but now, i yearn for another.
contradicting isnt it?
it made me think a lot, reflect a lot.
"i want to thank my platoonmates who were there for me..."
it was only a mere four day, but the bond was there.
helping one another to finish up food though we were on the verge of puking.
remembering each others' eating habits. (- cant take soya milk)
cheering. drilling. and much more.
it just doesnt feel the same, sitting on my cosy chair, in front of my com;
cause we're supposed to be preparing for lights out now...
everything felt like a dream, though it was tiring.
it just felt exactly like last year back in perth, when everything was so carefree...
right now, everything's so hectic.

we're only left with two months.
but will it end with a happy ending, like those in fairy tales?
mentioned above was only four days.
but we, are almost for 4 years.
each time we argue, i cry deep inside.
i think of the happy memories we had, during the start of 2006...
when we were sec ones, so young...
and knew nothing about how to behave...
it was sweet, really sweet.
i smile upon looking at every photo that we took.
i laugh upon recalling all the silly things that we did.
but, i tear upon us behaving like we dont know each other right now.
what has happened to our motto?
has it been broken because of the disagreements we have?
has it been broken because of others?
has it been broken...because of me?
i've not been your very best -, but you all have been my very best -.
i would rather be at -, then be where i'd be tomorrow.
because i'm afraid.
afraid that we would argue;
afraid that we wont talk to each other.
and i dont want it to happen, cause it's our last...
will we actually still be as close, after we -?

right now, i'm up all alone at home.
and i dont know why, but i'm ~~breaking down.~~
i want you back so badly from australia, i really do...

2009-03-14T21:54:00.002+08:00

~~i am super pissed off now, but i cant seem to explain why.~~

2009-03-14T21:08:00.003+08:00

i shall start counting down.
20 more days...
i'm missing you a lot.
today's Saturday...
it's the day that you'll normally cook supper for me!!!:(

okay, i shall stop emo-ing.
haha:D
when i saw my bro off a week ago, i wrote him a letter.
and he replied me via email.
he mentioned:
"and yea,i saw ur letter,really touchin!!! i wanna scold u! make me cry!"
hahahaha.
i'm surprised that he cried.
okay, i dont think he really cried lah.
maybe teared.
he hardly cries okay.
i shall consider being some motivational speaker or something.
since my words are actually so impactful!
haha:D

i'm eating mango strudel now:D
~~my stupid cousin refuse to come over to my house to accompany me!~~

2009-03-10T20:04:00.007+08:00

it's because things cannot be the way you want them to be.
just like some fruits are meant to be sour; but bananas cant be sour.
because a sour banana cannot be eaten...

i just came up with my own theory.
does it make sense?
haha:D

anyway, i've been a horrible slacker this week.
and it's only tuesday, my dear(s).
~~well, i screwed Geog Mock today:/~~

-screwed.up-stressed.up-fucked.up-

2009-03-09T23:08:00.001+08:00

i just webcam-ed with my brother:D
okay, now i have to chiong my homework:/

2009-03-08T19:50:00.003+08:00

fly me to the moon, and let me play among the stars...
nope, you dont have to, cause i am already over the moon!
haha:D
okay, i know i'm very lame.
but it's good joke right? although its not funny.
would you have thought of it huh?
haha:D
okay, i am very happy now.
cause i received a sms the first thing i woke up this morning from my brother.
and he just called back.
so poor thing, the hostel that he's staying in, the room's damn small.
and it's like filled with 3 double-decked beds.
sucky hostel.
and he has to cook his own dinner.
his friends are really lucky.
cause they have a good cook among them!
haha:D
my brother just cooked dinner for them.
jealous:/

tuition was quite okay today:)
first lesson with hazel.
and yes, i think the teacher is gay.
he sticks his pinky (sp?) out when he writes on the board!
haha:D
i bought a new handphone strap:D
(it's the one chen recommended me to buy the other day, when i had no money)
and i bought new markers:D
simple things which i do to make myself happy:):):)
but kelly, you MUST save money!

i kind of prefer you to be overseas, then you'll try to make time for me:)
but i prefer more (is this proper english?) to have you around with me...

2009-03-07T17:32:00.003+08:00

i really cant help but worry.
and i want to tell you so badly not to go.
but everyone might just think that i'm being stupid.
i've never been away from you for so long...
now, nobody's gonna stay up with me at night, so that i wont feel scared.
nobody's gonna cook supper for me.
nobody's gonna be my listening ear when i want to rant.
well, at least it's only for the next one month:/

everytime somebody close to me goes abroad, i get really worried.
just that i dont show it.
and unless i'm abroad with them.
it's not so much about the course that's affecting me.
it's just me. i'm like that.
and i dont know why.
just imagine not being able to see someone you love again...
the feeling is just so horrible...

brother's leaving in three and a half hours:(

2009-03-07T00:02:00.002+08:00

the past few days had been rather mentally and emotionally challenging for me.
but of all that they've said to us, most importantly, i've learned to value my family even more.
the life stories that i've heard today, made me realise how important they mean to me...

the girl who didnt bid her parents goodbye when they left for an overseas trip as she was too busy playing her computer. in the end, her parents never came back, as they were killed in an accident while overseas.

this made me reflect, on the times when i reluctantly say bye to my parents, my brother...
or sometimes, i would not even bother to.
right now, i'm really afraid, that one day i might just lose them.
i realised that i really cannot afford to lose my parents, my brother or my other relatives.
i wouldnt be able to take it, seriously.

i admire - for her courage to share her story about her parents with us just now.
she remained strong despite all the troubles she faced.
i guess i wouldnt be able to do the same, if i were in her shoes...

tomorrow, my brother would be leaving for Australia.
he would only be back after a month.
i dont know why, but i'm really worried.
i'm worried that something unfortunate would happen to him..
~~i really am.~~
because i love him so much...

2009-03-03T19:14:00.000+08:00

it's pretty weird for me to be blogging now.
i never felt so free since 2009 started.
okay, tomorrow and tomorrow the tomorrow and tomorrow the tomorrow the tomorrow is slack day at school:)
although we are only "dismissed" at 9p.m.
but at least there are no tests / mock exams etc etc.
hopefully the talk will be interesting.
if not i'll be wasting my 13 hours X 3 days at school.
"i am gifted, so are you..."

i couldnt finish emaths test today.
i slept during english mock today. (but i still completed it okay! pro right? haha:D)
i screwed up ss mock today. (dont listen to the hints other classes drop. believe in yourself. seriously.)

the weather today is super cold.
but i like school today.
excluding the test and mocks.
i had one + one + half = two and a half hours of FREE PERIOD!
woohoo~
okay, in other words, i only had emaths lesson today:)
there's suddenly this determination in me to study.
this morning i woke up feeling super tired.
so i told myself to sleep during all the free periods.
but i ended up studying for SS and teaching some others EMATHS:)
i'm proud of you, kelly!!!

after school, she, she and i went to macs.
i ate the most there:/
i'm starting to feel like a pig.
~~well i think i'm already considered as one.~~
i'm craving for a lot of food nowadays.
which is bad.
then we started talking about the list of items to get for - during -.
haha:D a lot of crappy ideas came up.
mostly from me though:)
then went with her to buy more FOOD from ntuc while she went off.
when i alighted at my house the bus stop, i saw him again.
why do i keep bumping into him???
i keep seeing him this week.
actually its only yesterday and today lah.
haha.
oh. my cousin.
haha:D

yesterday after school we discussed about -.
planned for G.W.
and so started telling G stories.
it was super freaky.
especially when that stupid wani, sitting beside me said:
"eh. wait. are any of you putting your hands on my shoulders?" (or something like that)
i totally screamed. and i cant believe i ~~cried~~.
that was how freaked out i was.
but the fear only lasted a while.
thanks for the hug lao kan<3
i'm really scared that something bad will happen to us during -.
us = charlie.
i'm scared that i'll screw up.
all these years, all the - appeared so brave, not at all frightened.
and it's partly cause i had the mindset that no matter what happens, they are there to help.
seriously, i really thought that way.
but i dont think i'll be able to do the same for them.
how?! how?! how?!

okay, i WILL study for geog.

"i love you and that's all i really know..."

2009-03-03T18:31:00.001+08:00

LEARNING JOURNEY <3
02.03.2009

4S2A<3

<333

chair and table:)))

our group:D

nice picture! i like the background.
btw, i took it:)

pretty pretty picture:)

chen:) the only took one picture with her...
and i think it's not very pretty:(

:D

cui xiao. hazel. chen. hanisah.

chris:) she sat with me on the bus.

okay, there are more photos.
but i'm lazy to upload them.
haha:D

"And if you ask me if I love him, I’d lie..."

2009-02-21T23:37:00.002+08:00

there's just something against my mouth the past 2 days.
on thursday morning, i was brushing my teeth while i was half asleep.
and then i cut the underside of my tongue, it bled. (DAMN PAINFUL!)
so the whole day i tried not to move my tongue while talking.
during PE, while fighting for the ball, i slipped, resulting in ct accidentally kicking my jaw with her knee.
my jaw felt damn sore and my eardrums were hurting, i dont know why.
this morning i woke up with a horrible sore throat. coughed like crazy the whole day.
just now went out with bro and cousin for dinner.
after that they went to the arcade for a while.
i tagged along.
then we played the table air hockey, or whatever you call that.
another plug, flew from another table and hit me on my lips/teeth.
i had no bloody idea how those people play.
but it was super painful.
see how LUCKY i am???

2009-02-21T17:05:00.002+08:00

i'm really really super bored now.
- just pang seh-ed me for our movie date:(
so now i am stoning at home.
i know i should and must study, but i dont want to.
my throat is really bad.
but looking on the bright side, at least my gastritis is gone.
i dont know why, but - is the first person to come to my mind everytime i'm bored.
and i just get super pissed off when i dont receive any sms at such a time.
you may be feeling damn sian reading my post now, cause i'm feeling sian typing all these.
- promised to read my blog, but i bet - hasnt done so till now.
happy guessing who - is.
not all of them are the same person though.
just dont wana type their names out.
and if your mind is leading you the wrong way, make a U-turn.
i dont have a boyfriend.
neither do i have a girlfriend.
sometimes i really wish that - isnt attached.
then perhaps i'll get more attention from -?
- wouldnt flare up at me so easily, and be so impatient.
never used to be like that.
well, - just shouted at me.
so now i'm ignoring -, sulking at my screen.
i'm kind of missing - now.
yes, -, i'm talking about you.
please sms me soon, i think you'll make my day.
if only that person was smart enough to find out who i'm refering to.
life is very depressing and stressful nowadays.
i dont know why.
i think if i have a polaroid or fujifilm instant camera in front of me now, i wouldnt be so sian.
if you're reading until now, all i have to say is, I LOVE YOU<3
at least i know that you care.
what do you want to eat for dinner tonight?
i have no idea.
seriously feel damn bored now.
i cannot think of anything else to crap on.
i'm feeling feverish again.
that's bad.
now, not even famous amos or donuts can cheer me up.
cause i cant even eat them:/
on the way to ikea just now, it was raining.
and i was the only pathetic soul waiting for the rain to stop in the bus stop.
for the fact that the 'entire world' had umbrella except for me.
i stared across the road, and saw that familiar building.
how i wish that you still lived there...
and then the rain stopped.
so i quick-walk to ikea.
and on the way, i nearly slipped.
so embarassing.
see how depressing my life is???
okay, i'm getting more and more sian doing this.
so, bye.
and thank you for reading all the way till here.
i give you a hug. *hugs*
feel honoured right?
too bad for those who closed the window halfway...
okay, i shall go on msn now.
to find someone to entertain this pathetic soul here.

"i think i'm starting to love you..."

2009-02-14T12:02:00.000+08:00

CREZ AWARDS 2009<333

WANI<3
hey babe! thanks for sticking with me throughout this entire event:)
yea, i know i suck for the times that i've yelled at you, but please dont take it to heart.
i'm sorry. and you're not a useless bum okay!
you're a really great singer! wouldnt have gotten through the auds without you!
though the time spent on stage was only a few minutes, it was just so awesome.
thanks for everything!!!
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JOSEPHINE<3
hey dear! you did well during your performance, so dont feel so disappointed okay?
i've enjoyed the show!!! haha:D
I LOVE YOU TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAZEL<3
hey zel! i think your performance was damn cool.
i like the way you all entered from the side doors:D
you're a super pro dancer!!!
wah lao. wah lao. wah lao. HAHA:D (inside joke)
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HAZZIE<3
hey dearest! sorry i couldnt be there to watch you perform.
but i believe you did a great job!
get well soon okay?
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HANISAH<3
i dont think you'll read this, but i think you did a good job!
congrats babe!
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ANNIE LIM (robyn)
hey punk rocker!
CONGRATS TO YOU!
[i think this picture is damn cool...]
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JANEEN<3
i think you're so small and cute on stage! haha:D
must jump more okay?
no offence!
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Janeen and Hazel:)

Hayyu:)
CONGRATS:D

Nazeera:)
CONGRATS:D

Andrea:)
A new friend i made!
Does she look like a sec 2? no right!
anyway, she's damn pro in playing the piano.

last but not least:
CHARLIE<3333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333
i really love you all like crazy!!!!!
thanks for everything!
the flowers, the gifts, the support, the mask, EVERYTHING.
i dont freaking care that i got scolded because you all ran up on stage with the flowers, cause - is just being a total ~~bitch~~.

thank you so much:)
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY<3

the mask i wore:)
pretty pretty!

the flowers i received yesterday:D
CHARLIE's damn sweet...

i wana upload the picture of the donuts i gave 2A.
but i cant find my phone cable...
okay, i shall upload another day:)

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY<3

2009-02-01T00:04:00.005+08:00

my mum is like super fortunate to have a daughter like me!
haha:D
nowadays the ads on tv keep advertising on frances yip.
and there's this song which goes "please...dont let this feeling end..."
ya, and my mum likes that song.
but she forgot the title.
so i went on the net and browse for almost all of that frances yip's song, downloaded them, listened to them one by one and try to listen for "please...dont let this feeling end..."
and in the end i found it!
quite proud of myself:D
haha.
cause it's like i only know that 5 words and those words arent the title of the song...
i spend like almost 2 hours doing that okay!
cause that singer is like no longer in the "trend".
so her songs quite difficult to search for.
and all her songs sound almost the same to me.
it just seems to me that the "please...dont let this feeling end..." can be fit into all the songs.
haha:D

tio hui, well done today man.
and dont miss your JAP guy too much!!!
haha:D

anyway, on wed, jo, sop, chen and i went for "copper food".
haha:D
there's a hidden meaning behind it.
happy guessing:)
thanks for that evening! loves<3

kelly's not doing her homework, again!
oh and btw, like i've said in my previous post, i kinda screwed up my bio...

2009-01-27T01:48:00.004+08:00

if you'll get fed up reading others complaining, i suggest you dont highlight what's below.

CNY this year is super sian.
i lost like damn a lot while ~~gambling~~ the past 2 days.
(thanks darling bro for splitting your winnings with me:D)
like what the hell.
and i cant even relax during this short break!
what's straight after it?
BIO SPA (O'level related)!!!
and i'm pretty confident that i'm not gonna do well.
failing my bio throughout 2008 except for once explains it all.
and not to mention, all the homework i have to complete...
the feeling really sucks man.
especially when you currently cant get to sleep.
and when there's like no one to talk to.
not even via sms and msn.
so much for a HAPPY new year...

nothing's going well for me this year...
and my moodswings are getting pretty bad.
i'm sorry. please bear with me.

i guess i'll just gorge myself with lots of food tomorrow and hopefully i'll fall sick.
~~but someone will hate me for it. cause the next day is a wednesday. you know what's on.~~

2009-01-23T22:45:00.002+08:00

Our Class CNY Deco:D

dont you think this cow is damn cute!!!

close up:D

our chain of more cows in the classroom...

close up:D

2009-01-20T23:05:00.003+08:00

i need someone to talk to badly.
someone who doesnt mind me ranting non-stop (as a form of distress...)
someone who wont compare himself/herself to me (cause everyone has their limits)
someone who knows how i really feel

okay, yes, kelly's a fussy and picky person. i know.

i really miss my guppies a lot, a lot. all 12 of them...

2009-01-19T19:38:00.011+08:00

4th Jan 2009:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WU JIA~

5th Jan 2009:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALA~

12th Jan 2009:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY<3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YEE SHAN~

13th Jan 2009:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAZZIE~

(i love you TOO! haha:D)

18th Jan 2009:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAZEL~

Okay, i'm sorry for all these late birthday wishes.
I do draft them, but i just got no time to complete the post.
:DDD

I shouldnt be here now.
So, BYE:)
(but i'll post soon. got a lot more things to say...)

p.s. i miss my baby guppies quite badly...
and thanks to all the lovely notes (chen, mx and glenda)
i will smile more, i promise:D

2009-01-02T23:52:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SOPHY TIO HUI!!!
(eh, i took damn long to do the above wordings okay!!!)
and i cant help but saying this again:
YOU'RE FINALLY 15!!! haha:D

although you act cute most of the times...

give that i'm-damn-sian look...

and look like you're 24-hours closing your eyes...

I STILL LOVE YOU OKAY<3
haha:D
and i'm sorry that this post is belated...

2008-12-30T23:14:00.003+08:00

i am starting to like PONYO a lot!!!
it's so cute okay.
the girl who sang the theme song is only eight.
she looks very cute in the video, especially when she do her actions while singing.
haha:D
her name is Nozomi Ohashi.

po-nyo po-nyo ponyo sakana no ko
aoi umi kara yattekita
po-nyo po-nyo ponyo fukuranda
manmaru onaka no onna no ko

now that ponyo has caught my attention,
i would most probably start buying ponyo stuff again,
like what i did during the CJ7 period:)
but i still like my CJ okay.
just not as much as before.
haha:)
i still have my CJ toy, the CJ pouch that sop gave me<3
and recently, i went to bangkok and bought a CJ shirt:)

2008-12-30T00:30:00.000+08:00

my bro is super sweeet!!!
why cant i be his girlfriend???
haha:D
but actually if i'm his girlfriend, he wont have such a wonderful sis like me:)
okay, i'm happy being his sis.
cause it's for life:)
but if i'm his girlfriend...
you never know what will happen.
i'm sure you know what i'm talking about...

my eyes are horribly red right now.
i think i look damn scary.
haha:D
well, it's not sore eyes.
it's my contact lenses.
i went for check up yesterday, and surprisingly, nothing's wrong!
no infection etc etc etc.
haha:D
it's just because i've been wearing it for pretty long hours every single day.
and today my eyes were pretty dry.
just when i left house without my eye drops:/
how smart can kelly ever get???

okay, i really dread going back to school.
read the following sentence and you'll understand:
"next year you better mug and mug, dont chat on msn and slack anymore!"
get what i mean???
you can happily guess who said that.
well, there are many other lines, but i think one's enough huh.
or perhaps the rest didnt really get into my head.
haha:D
truthfully speaking, i am kind of sick and tired of hearing such comments.
it's really annoying me, A LOT.

2008-12-27T05:14:00.000+08:00

hello:D
so i am back to blogging again!
haha:D
bangkok trip was fun!
cause of the riot, many people didnt dare go over.
so it's like damn quiet...
everywhere is mostly locals.
night markets are no longer crowded as before!!! I LIKE:)
last time when you try to bargain, you can only get a small discount.
now you can bargain till like half the price!!! (WOW!)
and if you still think the price is high right, when you walk away, some of them will call you back and lower the price!!! (MUAHAHAHAHA)
okay, does that explain how much i enjoyed myself?
oh, and i went for thai foot massage. damn shiok!!!!
hahahaha:D
but i must say that i didnt really feel that relax when i was away.
truthfully speaking, i was worried about class chalet and stuffs.
and of course charlie. i kept recalling how ys would say, "wah lao, you're damn lucky... can you pack me in your luggage..." and i would feel damn bad.
then i would try to imagine how things would actually be like when they're like right there with me:)

class chalet was quite a success... (in terms of planning and organising)
but was kinda disappointed at the number of people who actually turned up.
fyi, only jenna, hazzie and i stayed over for both nights...
but on first day, shyan joined us for a while at night...
and on second day, only millie and teryne came down to join us...
the pass the parcel game couldnt be played, but thanks jenna.
a lot of food were left over, but thanks to the bin.
well well.
i'm not blaming anyone for it, but i just cant help feeling disappointed.
nights spent with hazzie and jenna was fun!
we would walk to the downtown east area when its nearing mid-night.
(gosh, i hope that the teachers dont read my blog, or else the 3 of us are so dead.)
play sparkles(?) and fire in the chalet:o (we were too bored, cant blame us...)
waiting for the slow poke hazzie to finish her shower...
going to escape theme park with them, teryne and millie.
eating dinner while watching little nonya with them, teryne and millie.
etc etc etc.
oh, and sorry for putting my leg over you on the second night, jenna. HAHA:D

christmas party was fun fun fun<3
hope that they enjoyed themselves.
those words of gratitude were kind of heartwarming:)
oh, and i love fondue<3
thanks shan for the cherry!
thanks chen for crepe!
thanks sop for your poem! (even though it's from the net! haha, kidding.)
thanks lyn for sushi!
okay, thanks charlie for everything...
oh, my gift exchange present was from yee shan:)
haha.
and i received the same bar of soap that yee shan gave, from hazzie during the class gift exchange also!
so cool...

after that, before going back to class chalet, dropped by at pri school chalet.
kinda screwed. but at least i met up with chong, char, eiffel, sean and some others.
they're still the same.
but the other guys are just ungentlemen!
will upload a picture when i have the time:D

family christmas party was kinda fun.
supposed to go to my mum's side the party, but in the end because of my -, we had to go to my dad's side.
its not that i dont like my dad's side of the family, but... nvm.
anyway, we played bingo and my bro won the jackpot price of 100 dollars.
but too bad, i dun get a share from him:(
and at the party, finally talked to - after 3 years! (because of something which i would call, misunderstanding.)
enjoyed my first 5 hours of christmas with - :) (well, stupidly, via sms.)
haha:D
i guess my phone bill will explode this month.
but probably mine wont be as bad as -'s, cause - doesnt even have free smses.
haha:D

school is reopening in exactly one week!
and i tell you, i dun even have half my homework done...
well well...
i really dun want school to start, and the holidays to end.
once school starts, everything will be so crazy and stressful.
hai.
okay, but, i will get over it, SOON.
jiayous everyone!

i shall share something funny with you all that happened during the chalet while watching little nonya.
there was this part when yueniang's ma ma kowtow to the 2nd mistress (is it?) to beg her to let yueniang off or something like that.
in the end, her forehead was bleeding.
then when she went to see yueniang, yueniang asked:
"mama, what happened to your forehead?"
then jenna and i made up the following sentence together:
I PUT LIPSTICK ON MY FOREHEAD AS I WAS TRYING TO MAKE UP MY MIND.
hahahahahaha:D
damn hilarious!
actually i only came up with the lipstick part and jenna said the make up my mind part.
haha:D
okay, kelly must go do her homework now:)