anyway, it's been a super long time since i last updated:/
the previous two posts were drafts that i made super long ago.
was planning to update it, but well, got too lazy to do so. haha.
tomorrow is my "last" day of work:/
i'm kinda sad to actually have to stop work.
i really enjoy working there a lot!!
i'll probably miss the "HI! Welcome!:D" and "THANK YOU! See you again:)" that i'm so used to saying;
the little kids who would smile and say thank you when they leave the store;
and the times when i would look forward to end work and meet him for dinner (:D).
looking on the bright side, at least they've put me on hold:)
i'll be back during the holidays!!
school is starting soon:/
doesnt it feel like O's just ended yesterday huh?
i'm so used to being in Crescent.
wherever you go, you'll see familiar faces around.
but now, you'll have to start all over again...
i'm starting to feel very insecure about everything now:/
what if i cant make friends in my new school?
what if i try to be nice and people thinks that i'm hypocritical?
what if i try to open up and people thinks that i'm trying to gain attention?
there are so many what ifs...
well, i guess my self esteem can be quite low at times.
but i really care a lot about how people think of me. (is this good or bad?)
JC life is going to be short, and i really dont want to screw it up:/
and also, what about our secondary school friends?
will we still be able to be as close?
i remember the times when we graduated from primary school and how everyone was telling each other to keep in touch etc., but some friends are no longer in touch.
what if that happens this time also?
sigh.
well, just hoping that everything will turn out better than expected:/
dont you hate it when parents start to nag? argh.
i must show good results by june. I MUST.