many have banned the word "sorry" from me.
but i just can help it. sorry.
i'm really glad to know that there are so many out there who cares for me.
but i'm still not quite over whatever that had happened.
everything remains vivid in my mind.
it haunts me now and then.
it's really hard to get over it.
but i'm trying. i really am.
i dont know if anyone actually understands how i feel.
"it's not your fault."
that's what all of you say.
it'd made me feel worst, if i told myself, "you're not to blame".
but i'll stay strong no matter what.
in order to not continue hurting,
or to worsen the guilt i have towards her, towards 4S2A...
you'll see me smile again, i promise.
but you'll never see me cry deep inside.