but, i don't know how to open up to someone, anyone.
or perhaps there is just no one.
everything seems so important, but in fact, it isnt.
everything seems so unimportant, but in fact, it is.
can't seem to understand?
that's how i'm feeling right now.
i don't know if i'll regret the decision that i've made.
i'm just not willing to accept, willing to express how i really feel.
many times i've tried, but there's just something holding me back.
and i really want to apologise to you, for being what i would say, selfish.
i don't want to judge them based on their exterior, but they don't seem to behave like how they really are on the interior.
i believe that we still have one another, but everything just feels so different after
is it just me?
i'm always smiling whenever i see all of you, but deep down, i'm very worried.
i try not to be prepared for the worst, hoping that everything would remain at its best.
but should things really worsen, i wonder how long i can continue this deception to myself.
sometimes, looking on the bright side may not really be a good thing.
i'm really tired after this week. mentally tired.
i may seem as though i don't care about anything, but actually, i really do.
from study grades to them to my family.
and it's really tiring to have to put up a false front...